Brandon 2
KitaAddicted to Loving
May 10th 2007 16:30
Most commonly the rule is that you’ll be head over heels for one girl one day, the next day it will be someone else, so on and so forth, hence the driving force for the saying ‘better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all’.
Of course this falls flat on its face when a person is either addicted to loving, from one person to another, or the opposite, when the affection is stuck on one person like shit to a blanket.
In both cases the reason it falls flat is ironically the same reason, desire to be loved back is completely lacking. It’s like shit without piss, can’t have one without the other after a big meal otherwise it just feels wrong when you go to the toilet.
Is it really worth it that you love one person, lose the person and not be able to relocate your target vector? Because you convinced yourself three times over that it was over, done and done, not going anywhere, set for life.
So when you’re rejected by the love of your life the downward spiral will not simply be an equal and opposite to the joys you may have (or even may have not) had with the other person, because all you can do is long for her and it will last long and it will hurt like hell for even longer.
After you’ve forgotten her you have these god awful moments when your mind is relapsing on your past through some twisted sub-conscience and you feel angry or something, just emotional but you don’t know what or why.
Likewise is it really worth it to go looking for someone to love who will love you back using a brute force method of finding as many different people as possible? Sure it kills you that there’s no one who gives two bits about you but getting your heartbroken multiple times isn’t a solution, nor an acceptable price to pay to find someone to love, if you ever do your heart will be too broken down for you to enjoy it.
Your impatience and desire to be loved simply makes you more and more broken hearted than before and before.
It’s difficult to gauge which would be worse, to yearn for love or to yearn to be loved back or a combination of both, if you just want to be loved you’ll wish you had never been born, and don’t be surprised if you catch yourself wishing the only person you ever loved to have never existed.
Of course this falls flat on its face when a person is either addicted to loving, from one person to another, or the opposite, when the affection is stuck on one person like shit to a blanket.
In both cases the reason it falls flat is ironically the same reason, desire to be loved back is completely lacking. It’s like shit without piss, can’t have one without the other after a big meal otherwise it just feels wrong when you go to the toilet.
Is it really worth it that you love one person, lose the person and not be able to relocate your target vector? Because you convinced yourself three times over that it was over, done and done, not going anywhere, set for life.
So when you’re rejected by the love of your life the downward spiral will not simply be an equal and opposite to the joys you may have (or even may have not) had with the other person, because all you can do is long for her and it will last long and it will hurt like hell for even longer.
After you’ve forgotten her you have these god awful moments when your mind is relapsing on your past through some twisted sub-conscience and you feel angry or something, just emotional but you don’t know what or why.
Likewise is it really worth it to go looking for someone to love who will love you back using a brute force method of finding as many different people as possible? Sure it kills you that there’s no one who gives two bits about you but getting your heartbroken multiple times isn’t a solution, nor an acceptable price to pay to find someone to love, if you ever do your heart will be too broken down for you to enjoy it.
Your impatience and desire to be loved simply makes you more and more broken hearted than before and before.
It’s difficult to gauge which would be worse, to yearn for love or to yearn to be loved back or a combination of both, if you just want to be loved you’ll wish you had never been born, and don’t be surprised if you catch yourself wishing the only person you ever loved to have never existed.
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